LYRICS:

How could it be my life wasn't me
How could it be that it was?

Stuck in a dream, was faced with me
I couldn't see who it was

Caught in a lie
The world was inside

It couldn't be, but it was
Sun is of mind

The world is of blind
I couldn't see, but it was

It wasn't me, but it was
It wasn't me, but it was, yea
It wasn't me, but it was
It wasn't me, but it was, yea

When I could see that the fountain is free
I had to see it in me

Driven inside, the chain was of mind
I couldn't find no release

I was of life and life was of me
Doesn't belong to me

Drown in the earth
The sin was of mine
Couldn't of been, wasn't me

It wasn't me, but it was
It wasn't me, but it was, yea
It wasn't me, but it was
It wasn't me, but it was

Found the fountain of life
Found the fountain of life
Found the fountain of life
Found the fountain of life in me

Living a lie, I know I was blind
Of this I could not believe

I couldn't hear the snake speak
In my mind, unbelief

It wasn't me, but it was
It wasn't me, but it was, yea
It wasn't me, but it was
It wasn't me, but it was

I'm so proud I found it, found the living God
I'm so proud I found it, found the living God
I'm so proud I found it, found the living God
I'm so proud I found it, found the living God
I'm so proud I found it, found the living God
I'm so proud I found it, found the living God


SONG MEANING:

The song is about identity, illusion, inner conflict, sin, and eventually discovering God as the source of life.
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“How could it be my life wasn’t me / How could it be that it was?” opens with a conflict between responsibility and dissociation. The speaker knows the life was his and that he is responsible for it, but at the same time it can feel strangely foreign, almost as though someone else lived it. The line holds both truths at once: it was him, and yet it did not feel like the truest version of him.
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“Stuck in a dream, was faced with me / I couldn’t see who it was” continues that crisis of identity. The speaker is confronted with himself but does not fully recognize the person he has become.
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“Caught in a lie / The world was inside” plays on the simple idea of being caught in a lie, almost in the way a child might be caught lying, but expands it spiritually. Inside that lie is “the world”: the suggestion that the world people participate in is itself built upon falsehood, distortion, or illusion.
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“It couldn’t be, but it was / I couldn’t see, but it was” reinforces that uncomfortable recognition. The speaker resists what he is discovering, but reality remains true whether he can accept or perceive it or not.
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“Sun is of mind / The world is of blind” contrasts two forms of creation. The sun and light can be understood as projections of the mind of God—light coming from divine consciousness. “The world,” meanwhile, is not the geographical earth but the human game or system everyone participates in. That world is “of blind”: much of what people create and experience, particularly suffering and evil, emerges from a state of blinded consciousness.
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“It wasn’t me, but it was” is the central contradiction. The speaker looks at a sinful, distorted, or alienated version of himself and recognizes that while it does not feel like his deepest identity, he still cannot deny responsibility for the life he lived.
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That creates a tension between true identity and personal responsibility. The speaker does not completely identify with the person he became, but he also refuses to escape accountability by pretending that person was someone else.
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“When I could see that the fountain is free / I had to see it in me” introduces the spiritual breakthrough. The fountain is the fountain of life—God, divine truth, grace, and freedom. But that truth does not arrive through some external discovery. The speaker has to recognize it within himself. The freedom God offers becomes real only when it is inwardly perceived.
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“Driven inside, the chain was of mind / I couldn’t find no release” continues that inward movement. The imprisonment is psychological and spiritual. The chain exists in the mind, and therefore release cannot come solely by changing the outside world.
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“I was of life and life was of me / Doesn’t belong to me” suggests that life moves through the speaker and is part of him, while still belonging ultimately to something greater than himself.
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“Drown in the earth / The sin was of mine / Couldn’t of been, wasn’t me” returns again to responsibility and estrangement. The speaker recognizes the sin as his own while still struggling to reconcile it with who he believes himself to be at the deepest level.
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“Found the fountain of life” is the breakthrough turning into certainty. “Found the fountain of life in me” makes the inward nature of that discovery explicit: the speaker finds God’s life and truth through an internal awakening rather than through the external world.
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“Living a lie, I know I was blind / Of this I could not believe” becomes retrospective confession. The speaker now recognizes that he had been spiritually blind.
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“I couldn’t hear the snake speak / In my mind, unbelief” points toward the biblical serpent and spiritual deception, but the serpent operates internally. Temptation, unbelief, distortion, and deception can speak through the mind without being immediately recognized for what they are.
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“I’m so proud I found it, found the living God” resolves the song directly. The speaker begins unable to understand who he is or what kind of world he is living in and ends with certainty about what he has found.
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The arc of the song is:
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dissociation and identity conflict → recognition of the world’s underlying falsehood → responsibility for sin → recognition of blinded consciousness → inward spiritual imprisonment → discovering divine truth within → recognizing spiritual deception → finding the living God.
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The deepest tension remains “It wasn’t me, but it was.” The speaker is trying to reconcile responsibility for a life actually lived with the sense that the sinful, blinded self is not the deepest truth of who he is. The resolution is not denial of responsibility, but a deeper identity found through God.